Shizue Aihara Diary

~ Day 1 ~


     Lost in this new world... I awake from thy slumber, an endless white void... Continuing on for all eternity...


     I'm not sure how I got here, or how I feel... These people that I've met want to be my friend... Deep down inside, I only trust a few of them... My past is chilling... What would people think if they found out? Would they hate me? Would they want me dead? I'm scared... I'm scared that if they find out, I will be alone again... That cold empty void... Loneliness... Sadness... I was swallowed by them before I died... By surrendering my body I gave up the most important thing... Being human... I may not be a human anymore... But I'm alive and I want one more chance... One more chance to live the life I never could... One more chance for redemption... One more chance............. To smile..............

Relationships vary and can range in boosts from +10 to -10... 

Important numbers

10 ~ A true relationship, A soul mate and the one who Shizue wants.
7  ~ Perhaps a love confession or major hints
4  ~ Best Friend and Ally
2  ~ Good Friend and Ally
1  ~ Friends
0  ~ Neither Friend, Nor Foe...
-2 ~ A decent Dislike...
-4 ~ A strong Dislike...
-6 ~ Shizue may confront the others on why she dislikes that person
-8 ~ Shizue may physically fight the other person
-10 ~ Shizue will cut social connections with the person


Reiko 0+2=2
When Reiko was about to leave the campsite Shizue followed her and had a head to head talk... Shizue understands that Reiko knows what it's like to suffer... The feeling to not let someone down... Shizue doesn't want to let Reiko down...

Komali 0+1=1
Reiko sees Komali as her 4 year old little sister who died in the plane wreckage, she may be 19 but Shizue can't shake the fact that she misses her sister and uses Komali to cope with that.


Routier 0+1=1
Shizue feels that Routier is the only one who understands the self conscious concerns about her body... Everyone else loves chunky Shizue...


Valinea 0+.5=.5
Shizue feels a slight trust between herself and Val, however feels that there is a trust barrier seperating the two...


Ymir +/- 0
Shizue doesn't hate Ymir... She just isn't used to being hit on by people, most of the times Shizue gets too flustered or can't focus after being teased. She doesn't want to be within shoulder length or she will blush.


Sayo -.5
Shizue feels that Sayo isn't being a social benefit to the group... Although Shizue agrees that Ymir is a pervert and can't be 100% trusted she feels that Sayo isn't giving him a fair chance and that excluding Ymir may hurt the group performance.


CHARACTER OPINIONS OF SHIZUE CHANGE 1-2 TIMES PER WEEK!

Reiko 2+8=10
Shizue trusts Reiko with a pure passion. She feels that she can smile while Reiko is by her side. Reiko is 1 of 2 people who can open Shizue's locket besides herself.

Routier 1+5=6
Shizue believes that Routier is stubborn. However she feels this is more reason to like her, Shizue happily accepts Routier for her weight and situation and wishes for her success. Routier is 1 of 2 people who can open Shizue's locket besides herself.

Komali 1+3=4
Shizue enjoys her time with Komali and has started to fall into a habbit of calling her Onee-chan much to Komali's dismay. Shizue wants to guide Komali in the best way she can.

Valinea .5+2=2.5
Shizue notices her fighting style is different from Valinea's. While Shizue relies on quick fast multiple strikes, Valinea relies on heavy 1 shot attacks. Shizue wants Valinea to look at her as an equal though their techniques differ.

Ymir 0+1=1
Shizue feels that Ymir is simply misunderstood, Shizue wants to hang out with Ymir more... but is locked like glue to Reiko-chan. <Cause Reiko stole the precious thing...>

Nacht +/- 0
Shizue didn't interact much with Nacht, thusly no change in relationship occurred.

Illium +/- 0
Shizue feels that Illium is cold to her, ignoring her attempt to join the party. Shizue merely feels that Illium doesn't care much for her... Thusly no change in relationship has occurred.

Sayo -.5+.5=0
Shizue feels more respect coming from Sayo, however the dislike of Ymir is preventing their relation from growing... Thusly no change in relationship occurred.

~Day 23~


Be the change you want to see in the world.


Life has been more calm and relaxed as of late. Routier has finally returned to normal and found her true self. She is happy and relaxed, though immature, I still love her. I've become rather good friends with Averia, although we mainly have tiny secret competitions to see who is superior <I am>. Reiko seems to be under a lot of stress keeping the camp together, I'm giving her some space to do her job... I'm not a little girl who can rely on her all the time, she has her high and low moments but... she really is cute when she tries to hide her kinks~

Reiko +/-0 = 10 <MAXED>
Shizue loves Reiko~ You got that? I've kept it likes this for 3 weeks!


Routier 5+?=?
Shizue does not know how to express her opinion about Routier...


Komali 5+1=6 <MAXED>
Shizue cares about Komali like a big sister and wants her to be as happy as possible. Shizue feels that Komali has some pretty dang good advice!


Valinea 3.5+.5=4
Shizue cares about Valinea's opinions and wants her to accept help and support with relationships!


Ymir 2+2=4
Shizue realized how kind Ymir is, he isn't just the tailor....

Nacht +/- 0
Shizue didn't interact much with Nacht, thusly no change in relationship occurred.


Illium 1+/-0=1
Shizue feels that Illium is kind in a twisted way. Nevertheless Shizue approves the marriage 100%.


Sayo 2+1=3
Shizue feels that Sayo is taking a step in the right direction... She feels her personality is... ye....


Lionel 3+/-0=3
Shizue shows concern for Lionel and occasionally thinks he is ignorant about sharing weaknesses. However Shizue did not like Lionel lying about his mark...


Minh .5+2.5=3
DAT FANCY SUIT~ O A O ~ Also Shizue feels that Minh is one of the most calm individuals at camp!


Larisa 1+1=2
Shizue is poetry buddies with Larisa


Averia 4+2=6 <MAXED>
Shizue feels that Averia is a great rival and is ready to tie the score at 2-2!


Johnathon 0
Shizue hasn't seen Johnathon is a while... +/- 0


Shira 0+1=1
*no flavor* o 3 o

~ Day 50 ~




"The person who says it cannot be done should not interrupt the person who is doing it"




The feeling of camp has lightened up over the last week and a half, I've decided to move back in with Reiko after
listening to her struggles... Even if I am not in love, showing up is half the battle... Many new faces have entered
the camp grounds and I wish to soon meet them.

The good
-NOT SLEEPING ON THE HOPE
-Peaceful town as of late
-Cooking has improved with Averia
-I feel more relaxed as of late
-New people




The bad
-Reiko seems stressed...
-Haven't played music in a while...
-Ate Sirocco's cooking...
-Been tired as of late...
-We need a bigger bed...

Reiko +/-0 = 10 <MAXED>
Shizue loves Reiko~ You got that? I've kept it likes this for 4 weeks! You better get it in your thick skull!


Routier 5+1=6 <MAXED>
Shizue feels that Routier is a kind individual... but feels no romantic attraction.


Komali 6+1=7 <MAX BREAK>
Shizue trusts Komali with her life, thusly the limit of 6 has been broken.


Valinea 4+/-0=4
Shizue feels that Valinea has been busy as of late and hasn't bugged her...


Ymir 4+0=4
Shizue wishes to learn clothing from Ymir but she isn't sure if she'd be capable enough...

Nacht +/- 0
Shizue didn't interact much with Nacht, thusly no change in relationship occurred.


Illium 1+1=2
Shizue feels that Illium is comical in that sick twisted way. Shizue approves the marriage 100%.


Sayo 3+/-0=3
Shizue feels that Sayo hasn't interacted with her much... Thusly no relationship change...


Lionel 3+1=4
Shizue sees Lionel as the voice of reason in the group and trusts him well.


Minh 3+/-0=3
Shizue hasn't seen much of Minh lately... Thusly no relationship change...


Larisa 2+/-0=2
Shizue is a little bugged with Larisa and her "Poof" potion...


Averia 4+2=6 <MAXED>
Shizue feels that Averia is a great rival and is ready to tie the score at 2-2!


Johnathon 0
Shizue hasn't seen Johnathon is a while... +/- 0


Shira 0+1=1
*no flavor* o 3 o


Sirocco 0+/-0=0
This guy seems like a dick... but has reasoning... Kinda like Illium but more of a dick... Also he has no talents...


Travis 0+1=1
He seems nice and relaxed, he reminds me of the scientists who worked on weapons in the old world...


Tsuzune 0+1=1
I love her shrine~ It reminds me of the one near home back in Japan...

~ Day 64 ~



"Nothing is impossible, the word itself says, I’m possible!"



The world seems to have reached a tranquil peace after we have successfully completed the second sanctum. I am feeling more comfortable flying, but I still fear that we may crash one of these days...
In other news the big day for my little sister happened~ I'm really jealous that she got to have her big day with the person she loved... I won't ask Reiko though... I'm too scared...

~Haiku~

My heart skips a beat~
My desire skips past me~
Marry me Reiko~

I'm so glad this is just a diary...

Reiko 10-.5 = 9.5
Shizue feels that the tri-lationship is taking its toll, she feels uncomfortable...


Routier 6+/-0=6 <MAXED>
Shizue has felt uncomfortable lately around Routier... but no relation change...


Komali 7+/-0=7 <MAXED>
Shizue loved the wedding~


Valinea 4+/-0=4
Shizue feels that Valinea has been busy as of late and hasn't bugged her...


Ymir 4+1=5
Shizue thanks Ymir for the new clothing~

Nacht +/- 0
Shizue didn't interact much with Nacht, thusly no change in relationship occurred.


Illium 2+1=3
Shizue looks at Illium as someone who she trusts with Komali


Sayo 3+/-0=3
Shizue feels that Sayo hasn't interacted with her much... Thusly no relationship change...


Lionel 4+/-0=4
Shizue hasn't talked to Lionel as of late...


Minh 3+/-0=3
Shizue hasn't seen much of Minh lately... Thusly no relationship change...


Larisa 2+/-0=2
Shizue hasn't seen Larisa in a while, but is impressed that she broke down that thick skulled chinchilla.

Averia 6+/-0=6 <MAXED>
Shizue enjoyed cooking with Averia, they need to compete again~


Johnathon 0+1=1
Johnathon seems to be trying hard to earn respect, I'll give it to him... We all deserve a chance or two, right?


Shira 1+/-0=1
I haven't seen her in a while... I hope she's okay...


Sirocco 0+1=1
He's decently smart but ends up the butt of most of our jokes...


Travis 1+1=2
He seems like a friendly fellow, It's nice to see another raccoon~


Tsuzune 1+/-0=1
I haven't really talked to her...

Tree: 0-.5=-.5
Shizue doesn't appreciate this ninja very much and feels like he has to mature...

~ Day 83 ~


"Either write something worth reading or do something worth writing"


I've entered this week holding something heavy in my soul... I am scared to tell anyone about how I feel though... I wish to tell Reiko... Komali... Anyone... But alas I am too weak to raise my voice... My repeating nightmares about the plane crash fly through my brain at night... I sit and think most of the time now... I wish the best for everyone at camp... But I need to help myself right now... Someone... Help...

Reiko 10 <MAXED>
This was below 10? What are you talking about...
Tao: >:v ~Shizuko~

Routier 7 <MAXED>
Shizue feels that Routier is doing her best and that she is kind.

Komali 7 <MAXED>
Shizue feels komali becoming more human... She looks at her as she used to look at Mariko...


Valinea 4+/-0=4
Shizue has not interacted with Valinea.


Ymir 5+1=6
Shizue thanks Ymir the ultimate bet... Way to show confidence~


Nacht +/- 0
Shizue didn't interact much with Nacht, thusly no change in relationship occurred.


Illium 3+1=4
Shizue sees Illium as a voice of reason... His logic is sound, blunt... but sound...


Sayo 3+/-0=3
Shizue feels that Sayo hasn't interacted with her much... Thusly no relationship change...


Lionel 4+1=5
Shizue has appreciated how Lionel has evolved as of late.


Minh 3+1=4
Shizue is concerned about Minh... Hopefully he returns and eats his tiramisu...

Larisa 2+1=3
Shizue appreciates that someone can put that chinchilla in his place.

Averia 6+1=7 <MAXED>
Shizue enjoyed her contest with Averia! Scores tied Averia, watch your ass!


Johnathon 1+1=2
Johnathon seems to be trying hard to earn respect, he is becoming a nice addition to the camp.


Shira 1+/-0=1
I haven't seen her in a while... I hope she's okay... We should talk some more~


Sirocco 1-2=-1
Everyone just... kick this guy in the balls...


Travis 2+1=3
This guy reminds me of my general... So smart and calm headed...


Tsuzune 1+/-0=1
I'm slightly scared of her to be honest...

Tree: -.5+1.5=.5
Shizue looks at this ninja and thinks... we should race...

Beatrix: 0+1=1
She's really nice and very friendly~

Bey: 0+1=1
Wow~ She reminds me of my best friend when I was a child~

~ Day 91 ~


"The past is a ghost, the future a dream. All we ever have is now."


This week felt mellow and relaxing at best~ Except the part where I saw Mariko and almost left those closest to me... Luckily Reiko and Averia were there to help me through the tough situation! I don't know what I would've done if those two didn't rescue me... I just hope that one day I can repay the service they gave me...

I wish I had brought my best friend Routier with me... I wonder why I didn't?

Reiko 10 <MAXED>
No comment... Nuf Said...

Routier 7 <MAXED>
Shizue feels that Routier is a great friend.

??? 7-7=0
Shizue feels she forgot something...

Valinea 4+/-0=4
Shizue has not interacted with Valinea.


Ymir 6+/-0=6
Shizue enjoys seeing Ymir around camp but hasn't seen him of late.


Nacht +/- 0
Shizue didn't interact much with Nacht, thusly no change in relationship occurred.


Illium 4+1=5
Shizue sees Illium as a nice friend~


Sayo 3+/-0=3
Shizue feels that Sayo hasn't interacted with her much... Thusly no relationship change...


??? 5-5=0
Shizue feels someone else has dissapeared...


Minh 4+1=5
Shizue is happy that Minh liked her tira misu~


Larisa 3+1=4
Shizue appreciates that someone can put that chinchilla in his place.

Averia 6+1=7 <MAX>
Shizue appreciated Averia coming to her rescue~


Johnathon 2+1=3
Johnathon seems to be quite the strong man now~ We all underestimated him~


Shira 1+/-0=1
I haven't seen her in a while... I hope she's okay... We should talk some more~


Sirocco -1+1=0
Maybe... Just maybe... We're giving this guy too much shit...


Travis 3+/-0=3
This guy seems really nice~ I hope to talk to him some more~


Tsuzune 1+/-0=1
I'm still scared of her...


Tree: .5+.5=1
Shizue wishes to challenge Tree to a race of speed!


Beatrix: 1+/-0=1
I haven't really seen her around...


Bey: 1+1=2
She's so much like Mariko~

~Day 98~

"The past is a ghost, the future a dream, all we ever have is now."

It came back and hit me it the face... I remember who I have forgotten! White Knight and my sister... How could I have forgotten two of my best friends. I've yet to speak to Komali, but I'll let the two of them eat the special treat that I planned for them~

Tsuzune attacked me this last week and I've yet to see her since the incident... I hope that she took thought while locked away and has had a change of heart... I've noticed that camp besides the incident has been very peaceful and relaxing~ I can't wait until later this week... I plan to prank Tree really good~ Stay posted~

Reiko 10 <MAXED>
No comment... Nuf Said...

Routier 7 <MAXED>
Shizue feels that Routier is a great friend.


Komali 0+7=7 <MAXED>
How could I forget about onee-chan?


Valinea 4+/-0=4
Shizue has not interacted with Valinea.


Ymir 6+/-0=6
Shizue enjoys seeing Ymir around camp but hasn't seen him of late.


Nacht +/- 0
Shizue didn't interact much with Nacht, thusly no change in relationship occurred.


Illium 5+.5=5.5
Shizue hopes Illium is feeling okay as of late~


Sayo 3+/-0=3
Shizue feels that Sayo hasn't interacted with her much... Thusly no relationship change...


Lionel 0+5=5
That's right! It was white knight!


Minh 5+/-0=5
Shizue hopes to talk to Minh about stuff~


Larisa 4+/-0=4
Shizue thinks the two should discuss more poetry~


Averia 7 <MAX>
Shizue hopes to cook with her again soon~


Johnathon 3+/-0=3
Johnathon seems to be strong... but his arrogance exceeds his skill...


Shira 1+1=2
I want to learn more about fabrics from her~


Sirocco 0+1=1
He was pretty cute as a kitten...


Travis 3+1=4
This guy is like an old friend from the military~


Tsuzune 1-4=-3
... *cringe* ...


Tree: 1+1=2
Prepare to be pranked~ hee hee~


Beatrix: 1+2=3
I really liked hanging out with her~!


Bey: 2+1=3
She's so sweet... I wanna hug her~


Ohdran: 0+/-0=0
He's nice... Just quiet is all...

~Day 126~

"You miss 100% of the shots that you do not take!"

I've grown content to living in town as myself now, I do not need to hold back my desires... I can admit my true love! The fact... That I love... I love... *sniff* Chocolate... It's really tasty, and If Reiko and Rooty do not mind me eating it then I will consume it with a smile~

Tsuzune has earned my trust back after the incident and seems to have found someone to talk to as her personality and mood have brightened since my last entry~

We completed another sanctum and are nearly halfway to the finish... But deep down I am concerned... If we complete this quest... Will we all go back to where we came? Where I am alone still? ... I can not think down though, as long as we are here I will keep smiling until the end, the only time an assassin can cry... Is when it is all over...

The x-cuber thingy that Reiko made is super fun~ I am not sure what a gamer score is... But apparently those gold trophies mean something... I hope that someone will try multiplication player with me at some point~

Reiko 10 <MAXED>

Routier 7+1 <LIMIT BREAK>
Shizue enjoys Routier~


Komali 7+/-0=7 <MAXED>
The prank was great~


Valinea 4+/-0=4
Shizue has not interacted with Valinea.


Ymir 6+/-0=6
Shizue enjoys seeing Ymir around camp but hasn't seen him of late.


Illium 5.5+/-0=5.5
Shizue has not interacted with Illium.


Sayo 3+1=4
Shizue is happy of Sayo's return~


Lionel 5+.5=5.5
White Knight seems to be in a brighter mood~


Minh 5+/-0=5
Shizue hasn't interacted with Minh.


Larisa 4+1=5
Shizue enjoys the girl talk with Larisa~


Averia 7 <MAX>
Shizue wishes for a spar at some point~


Johnathon 3-1=2
Johnathon has been acting up in camp as of late...


Shira 2+1=3
Her request form is pretty neat~


Sirocco 1+1=2
He isn't a moron? Who would've known~


Travis 4+/-0=4
Shizue has not interacted with Travis.


Tsuzune -3+4=1
She's earned my trust back~


Tree: 2+/-0=2
He needs to speak up... He's too secretive...


Beatrix: 3+1=4
She's really nice and friendly~


Bey: 3+1=4
She likes chocolate too~


Ohdran: 0+/-0=0
....... I never see him!!!


Sol: 0+1=1
Sol seems pretty cool~


Kiraka: 0+1=1
She's a fun person~


Zyne and Ruby have not interacted yet... 0+/-0=0

~Day 147~

"If you hear a voice within you say “you cannot change,” then by all means change and that voice will be silenced."

I'm living a dream right now~ I'm happy with everything that is happening and the new faces in town are nice to see~ Zyne is a really nice girl who has good logic and seems to be pretty smart... I do hope she can show me her skills at some point and that we can spar~

I've done a fair share of cooking as of late, but have been stopped by a good lack of corn... It is like the famines we had back in the union... but, that is besides the point. I have decided to drop the past and live happy, after all~ Once we save this world we can live in eternal peace~

On a side note... I hope the moon is made~

Reiko 10 <MAXED>


Routier 8+1=9 <LIMIT BREAK>
Shizue was happy for the moon promise~


Komali 7+/-0=7 <MAXED>
Her kids look so cute~


Valinea 4+/-0=4
Shizue has not interacted with Valinea.


Ymir 6+/-0=6
Shizue enjoys seeing Ymir around camp but hasn't seen him of late.


Illium 5.5+/-0=5.5
Shizue has not interacted with Illium.


Sayo 4+.5=4.5
Shizue wants to play Sayo in CoD~


Lionel 5.5+.5=6
Shizue is getting ready to set up for Lionel's wedding~


Minh 5+/-0=5
Shizue hasn't interacted with Minh.


Larisa 5+/-0=5
Shizue hasn't talked much with Larisa...


Averia 7 <MAX>
Shizue wishes to train with Averia.


Johnathon 2+/-0=2
Johnathon seems to be improving...


Shira 3+/-0=3
Maybe we should cook together~


Sirocco 2+1=3
He's a lot more confident of late...


Travis 4+/-0=4
Shizue has not interacted with Travis.


Tsuzune 1+1=2
She seems more upbeat as of late~


Tree: 2+/-0=2
I would really like to train with him~


Bey: 4+.5=4.5
She should play more viola for me~


Ohdran: 0+/-0=0
....... I never see him!!!


Sol: 0+1=1
Hmm... I hardly see him sadly...


Kiraka: 1+1=2
She's a nice person~ I think we should talk more~


Zyne: 0+1=1
She seems pretty smart and cool~ We should spar~


Ruby has not interacted yet... 0+/-0=0